Caracal007

I often question what direction to take with my art. I'm not sure how many of you follow my "main" account, pawcanada but more often than not I've mentioned my intention to focus on "artistic nudity" but never seem to have the balls to do so. Part of it is due to how "open" I am with the account; I'll often give links to friends and colleagues as examples of my art.

Do I feel "shame" for wanting to draw nudity? Maybe a little. I've often acted based off what others thing of me; a foolish thing to do granted, and something I don't do as much these days but still. Would my colleagues think I am a weirdo for wanting to do so? After all, nudity and art go hand in hand. I'm not sure if I want to strain what I have with them though by revealing this side.

Ergo my consideration is to use this otherwise dead account (seeing as how I do bugger all with it anyway) to host my "non work-safe" pictures. What do people think? Is it a good idea to have this one lot of art and my main for another? Do you think I should just drink a glass of man the frack up and put it on my main gallery? As always, I am interested in hearing.

And finally, to those I offended by leaving or upon my return, I would like to once again send out a formal appology. I agree I handled my leaving badly and recently my art has become a greater aspect of my life (I often introduce myself as an artist to people) so my hope is we can mend fences and even if we don't return to the level we were at in 2008, we can at least have something .

Caracal007 Of Earth...

Rise!

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OK, I think there's been some confusion about what's going on.

You may have noticed the first comment was by . That's my new account, as I've decided to leave this one and make a fresh start. More informaiton can be found on the new account and/or asked there.

And for those of you who don't read comics/Green Lantern, please click the link below
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I removed it because some wonderful friends all said words that pretty much woke me up.

The last journal was, to be quite frank, a mistake. I didn't really go into much detail because I didn't want some of my more personal things to be revealed on a public website, but sufficed to say I gave the wrong impression to people and in hindsight realised what I wrote is absolute garbage.

I'm still in a block, but the words said by a number of people, particuarly , and were a reminder and a slap.

I am not leaving. This is not the end. I am not dead. But I am still some what busy. I am still trying to re-shape some areas of my life. And I am still in a block. Hopefully these things will pass sooner rather than later.

The Fat Lady didn't sing. Someone else did and I mistook her voice for the Fat Lady's.

Three Things You Want To Do Before You Die:

1. Get back into drawing
2. See more countres
3. Be a father

Three Names You Go By:
1. Peter
2. Pete
3. N/A

Three Screen Names You Have Had:
1. Caracal
2. Explosive Bobcat
3. Cloud Strife

Three Physical Things You Like About Yourself:
1. My goatee
2. My hair
3. My eyes

Three Parts Of Your Heritage:
1. English
2. Irish (I think)
3. Welsh (I think)

Three Things That Scare You:
1. Falling
2. Losing fingers
3. Animals with big sharp pointy teeth that are inches away from something I'd rather not lose...

Three Of Your Everyday Essentials:
1. Sleep
2. Food
3. A drink

Three Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
1. T-shirt
2. Jeans
3. Bead necklace

Three Of Your Favorite Bands/Musical Artists:
1. Edguy
2. Kamelot
3. Nickleback

Three Of Your Favorite Songs:
1. If Today was your Last Day - Nickleback
2. Misitry of Saints - Edguy
3. Carry Me Over - Avantasia

Three Things You Want In A Relationship:
1. Support
2. Love
3. Comfort

Two Truths And A Lie (in no particular order):
1. I'm a geek
2. I love collecting things
3. I'm married

Three Physical Things About The Preferred Sex That Appeal To You:
1. Chest
2. Face
3. Legs

Three Of Your Favorite Hobbies:
1. Drawing
2. Photography
3. Fitness training

Three Things You Want To Do Really Badly Right Now:
1. Draw
2. Take some photos
3. Sleep

Three Careers You're Considering/You've Considered:
1. Teacher
2. Historian
3. Journalist

Three Places You Want To Go On Vacation:
1. Egypt
2. Rome
3. Greece

Three Names You Like:
1. Robert
2. Ben
3. May

Three Ways That You Are Stereotypically A Girl:
1. I have long(ish) hair
2. I'm emotional
3. I like to look and smell good

Three Ways That You Are Stereotypically A Boy:
1. I have that on my mind a lot
2. I have facial hair
3. I love rock/metal

Hey all...

The bad news: Yeah, still no progress over my block.

The good news: Without going to much into some aspects of my personal life, I am pleased to say it is starting to take turns for the better. Sure I don't have everything I want just yet, but I enjoy what I have. And you know what, it is starting to make me a more happier, buzzing person and I love that.

I am also hoping to turn my new happier outlook towards drawing, but time will tell. TBH I find it harder to view myself as "Caracal" any more, and a lot of what I want to draw comes from my days as Caracal.

In other news, I am no longer a martial artist. Least for the time being. As some of you know, I failed to obtain my Black Belt in September. I was given a three month grace period to work on the goals (long story. Basically my insutrctor believed one should do more than kicking and punching to get a Black Belt and had to work on personal goals, amoung other tasks). However the platonic friendship I've mentioned before started not long after that and TBH my priorities changed. I have felt I'm not as keen to be a martial artist as I was six months ago so have decided to take a short break until I feel keen again and also to branch out and try some new things. Of course being a procastinator means I'm not quite getting anywhere JUST yet .